Arrrhhh!!!
scared the hell out of me juz nw!!
i wanted to present for the new Fnb hw la...
BUT the teaches's laptop cannot open the files in my thumbdrive!!!!
i was soo freaking scared coz i didnt hav any backup, which means i hav to do it all over again!!!
no way la!!! i soooo wun do it..
Luckily it was HIS laptop's problem, nt my thumbdrive...:D:D....
haha...


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Today morning i was lyk soo emo la..
coz argued wif my mum...
i forgot all abt my" Not talking at home" policy...
Shall constantly remind myself nt to talk at home frm now on..
No talk = No arguments=peace at home...
i already reached the stage wif her where i cant be bothered to care wad she talks abt...
All the things that she lyk are the things that i dun lyk..
Our characters juz clash...
soo cannot get along at alll...
We can even quarrel over the smallest things lyk..
wad im gonna where in school...
lyk wad the hell has it gota do wif her on wad i wear in school huh??
i hate the fact that she juz tries to control my life wen i want FREEDOM...
so hmm.. shall not talk...
haiz... My life is soo not happening at all...
not interesting at all wen i hav to quarrel wif my mum every minute wen she get home...
every morning wen i wake up, i cant wait to leave the house...
Wen im in school i dun feel lyk going home...
i hate being at home..
I cant get ANYTHING at home...
all i wanted was v basic ok??!!
all i wanted was juz some peace n quiet where i can juz sleep, read n watch tv in peace...


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I did it again...
i looked outside the window again...
i wanted to look for HIM...
obviously he didnt take the bus today, or i would b lyk super happy...
i muz soo stop this...
shall sit at the other side the next time i board the bus...
i didnt even get to c HIM at all today...
nt happy!!! :(:(
At 1 point of time.. i looked outside the window n even thought that a guy wearing green was HIM...
haha.. but it was juz the cleaner picking rubbish frm the bin.. haha...
I WILL NT LOOK AT THE WINDOW AGAIN!!
muz stop thinking of HIM...


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I think im gona get depression soon...
hav all the symptoms of it..
eg: Mood swings, feel lyk crying for no reason...kept thinking that ppl are talking abt me wen they are obviously nt...
The only symptom of depression that i didnt get was commiting suicide... lol...
i MIGHT get it sooonn......
soo i muz try to find ways to stop it...
arrhhhhh.... I HAVE NO LIFE...
i suddenly remind myself of the secondary school days where i will always complain to yx they all abt my mum... haha...
but wadever.. i doubt we will even get to meet up once every 3 months nw....
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