today is the release of olvl results..
As usual, even if its not me..
all my relatives will start asking me how much n gt n try to compare them with their own childrens...
wadever... thn if i get beta then they will say.." oh.. so u win.."
WIN??? win wad shit?? i didnt even wanna compete in the 1st place la..
wads the big deal if they get higher thn me?
mayb i do care abit coz my mum will b lyk" u c la.. y u so stupid?? who who who gt higher thn u.."but thats all la..
argh... wadever..


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nowadays.. i hav been soo freaking bz with projects tat i hav barely time to eat, bathe, drink...
okok... im exaggerating.. but u should get wad i mean...
skin is lyk getting worse too..
duno is becoz i everytime look at it until i cant tell if gt improve, or it realy hasnt improved..
coz realy... i admit.. i sleep late and all..
haiya.. realy giv up on my skin already..
at most i go laser lor...
haiya... realy.. my skin..
c already kak sim..


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Went shopping for formal clothes on wed..:D
bought a top n a skirt..
damn cheap la..
$46 only!!!
lyk usually a top will cost $49 liao lor..
gd deal!!
G2000 still gt sales u noe!!
faster go GRAB!!


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nowadays ar..
i feeel lyk i hav no energy to do anything at all..
lyk.. no energy to do projects, go cca.. do wadever things la..
think is becoz of all the things im gng through now..
especially the skin thing..
seriously made me v demoralized.. lyk made me hav all the negative thinkings and all..
i cant help it..
n sometimes, i feel that my passion for singing hav faded...
lyk.. sometimes.. i will still wanna sing.. but lyk not all the time..
i wun feel lyk gng choir and all..
Moreover, all the test stuff and all are stressing me lyk hell..
longan said that he nv c ppl in poly so stressed 1 lor..
i so totally agree..
i duno y im so stressed..
duno y im lidat..
i juz dun understand myself for these few days..
i get realy moods swings damn ez...
lyk a while damn angry n all..n i noe its nt coz i hav my menses. coz it ended already..


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okok.. enuf wif all the bad stuff..
if nt u all will think tat my life realy that bad..
i still had times wen i had fun la..
lyk i had fun wif my current marketing grp with the all time nonesensical (spelling?) ivan..
Juz and the rest..
haha.. I had even more fun doing the OB stuff wif chardonnay..
though we gt scolded where ever we went wenever we are trying to rehearse for the OB presentation..
we still enjoyed lyk every moment..
though sometimes i duno how come they can b realy open abt all this..
mayb is me ba.. guan bi zhi zi.. :D