ღ Saturday, September 13, 2008
♥ A New Chapter Begins ♥
Post number 417?..
and duno how many days to when i close my blog..
some1 asked my why i wanted to close my blog..
haha..
simple reason..
coz i want some privacy now..
i realised that there are some ppl whom i dun lyk..
reads my blog..
how the hell am i able to blog openly when i noe some1 i dun lyk is reading me scolding them?
but wadever..
i duwan them to know coz i duwan thing to become awkward..
neither do i wanna keep mum abt it coz im nt that kind..
i would probably explode by then..
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Went for the MG thing again..
and went for tuition b4 that..
woke up damn early for it..
:(
dun lyk..
coz i hate waking up early..
but for the sake of $$ wad to do?
haiz..
realised that i scheduled 1 of the tutee's timing wrongly..
they were waiting for me lor....
damn...
bet they hate me lor..
but wadever la..
i also dun intend to teach them anymore after this month..
i wanna quit all after their PSLE..
which includes the primary 2 1..
coz i dun think i wanna lyk.. run all over the place for tuition..
realy v inconvinent....
but.. no doubt, its good $...
sit there and teach for a few hours every week, a few hundred comes in.. where to find sia...
hav this urge to quit all ym jobs now..
feel so sian from all the working..
but unwilling to part with the $...
i wan $$!!! rahh!!!
but i also duno wad am i gng to do after i quit all my jobs..
guess i will lyk realy mould at home..
nth to do at all..
*********************edited..I forgot smth..we were having lessons today..thn we were all talking abt the MG goals..wa.. they realy hav big goals..they wanna make it big..wanna go out international..so try to collect fans now etc..but i think its too much of a big dream to achieve....almost not realistic to me i feell..me?? being a singer??unless some big music company spots me, willing to spend $ on me to makeover or go for plastic surgery.. thn mayb possible ba..but look at the world out there..there are thousands... no.. millions wanting to achieve their star dream..EVERY1 wants to be a singer..juz look at the number of ppl who joined campus superstar and project superstar..queue 1 whole day for audition kind..duno how many thousands go for interview..out of the few thousands there...sure gt a least a few hundred are of the same standard.. or even better thn me..and out of the few hundred that are good enough, there will be this 1 hundred ppl who are good looking, and can sing..how to beat them sia??!?!plz.. im a realistic person..i juz wanna sing well..if i can, i become this TEENY WEENY big famous enough for me to sing in a pub..they say" u noe how much they pay??$60 per hr leh.."they feel that its little..but for me..i think its ok..coz its not a sure get in for the entertainment industry..so y be so persistant in dreaming for the impossible..yes.. i understand that i muz hav more confidence in myself..but no matter how much confidence i hav..i also dun feel that im good enough to make it...its a few years of long wait for 1 to be famous..of course its nt instant la..im nt expecting it to be instant either..but i definetly duwanna wait 5-6 years with a job with unstable income, waiting for a chance..tat MIGHT come if im lucky..haiya.. juz my thoughts la..
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